Trust Your Process

I think we all go through a phase where we feel like we are not good enough . We live in a world where we compare ourselves to others. Sometimes we do not even realize that we are doing it . Celebrities these days are overly idolized . We even idolize our peers and do not even realize it. Comparing ourselves to others is not good for our mental health . I found myself depressed because I was comparing my self to others . I felt like I wasn’t pretty because I was comparing myself to Instagram models . I felt like I wasn’t accomplished enough because my peers were graduating college and starting their careers and families and I wasn’t . Slowly but surely I am getting out of that phase . I know now that I am pretty. Size does not define beauty . In January there was a model call for Juicy Body Goddess Modeling Agency, a plus size modeling agency. I talked myself into going , I was so excited . It was the morning of the model call , my parents and brother had come to town , I should have been excited , but I was scared . I talked myself out of going , I had so my thoughts going through my head , “I’m not pretty enough to be a model” ,” most models are tall I’m 5”6” , “ I’m bowlegged , I’ve never seen a bowlegged model” . I finally decided to pray and just go through with it . I ended up going through with and I made it into the model development group with the agency. I was so excited . The agency is training the the ladies in the group up to be the best models we can. This group has helped my self esteem tremendously. I can’t wait to see what else will come from being apart of this agency . Even though I haven’t finished college yet , does not mean I am a failure . God just has other plans for me at the moment . I have a business that I am constantly working on and trying to grow into something big . I get messages all the time from people ,men and women , young and old, who say I inspire them. I am chasing my dreams , the sky is the limit . We can not get wrapped up in what we are not , we have to focus on what we are . We all have a purpose it just takes sometime to figure out what it is, we have to trust the process. Love yourself , take risks, and chase your dreams. Someday, everything will make perfect sense. “So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile through the tears, be strong and keep reminding your self that everything happens for a reason.” John Mayer 

Taylor Nycole ✨