Confidently Lost

A few months ago, I was introduced to a song by Sabrina Claudio called, Confidently Lost. I instantly feel in love with the song and felt like she wrote it for me. For years now, I have been on this journey to find myself and who I truly am. I get so upset sometimes because I have no idea what I am supposed to be doing with my life. I know what I want to do but I get discouraged so easily. I have been carrying around a lot of hurt and pain over the past few years. I always felt like I needed to be strong, never letting anyone see me fold. I always felt like tears were a sign of weakness and I didn’t want anyone to think I was weak. Every day it gets harder and harder to be strong. The pain sometimes feels like it is more than I can bear. When my emotions do start to come out they are either come out in anger or non-stop crying…Sometimes even both. Over the years I picked up a bad habit, nothing to crazy so don’t freak out. But it became something I did to ease the pain I was feeling. Sometimes my method worked, other times it didn’t and I would become more emotional. As this new year begins, I want to go about things differently. I want to make better decisions. It is time to let go of the hurt and pain that I feel, it has done nothing but destroy my mental health and make it worse. Mental health is VERY important and it is time I treat it as such. I no longer want to be my own worse enemy. To get to where I want to be in life I must let go of the past and focus on the right now, and the future. What happened in the past happened and it is nothing I can do to change it. My past WILL NOT determine my future. I want to be surrounded by positive and loyal people, but I also want to be that positive and loyal person that people want to be around. I want to have a closer relationship with god and begin to lean on him when those rough times begin to come around. I want to be the BEST Taylor that I possibly can be. It is time to take care of myself. It is okay to be lost, life is a journey and we all are searching for our purpose. Sometimes in life things will happen that we won’t be able to make sense of, I realize now that it is okay and it is no need to freak out or become overwhelmed. When the time comes to relive some stress and ease some pain, find something productive that will help you calm down, I believe blogging has become my outlet. Going into 2018 I am confidently lost and I am okay with it. I know eventually I will end up right where I need to be. Everything that has happened in the past, good, bad, and ugly, will make into the person I am supposed to be.

  • Taylor Nycole