“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward.”― Steve Maraboli
You will no longer control me. I have lived my life wondering how and why something have happened and it has worn me out. I am tired and it is time for us to say our goodbyes. To the people who have hurt me, I appreciate you more than you will ever know. The pain you caused has helped me grow into the person I am today and I am stronger. I find myself wondering why, why did some of you treat me the way you did. Despite my flaws I am truly a good person and whenever you needed me I was there, so I just wonder why the favor wasn’t returned. I was there to wipe your tears but where were you when I needed someone to wipe mine. With a lot of you the relationships and friendships were just one sided. At some point I felt like I was being used. When you were down and out and things were going downhill I was the one to pick up you up and reassure you that things would get better. When friends and family counted you out I let you know that Taylor would always have your back. Then when things were going good I wouldn’t hear anything from you. Or the ones who love me when I’m around and when I’m not it’s a whole different story. Some of you swore that you loved me so much but actions showed me otherwise. It is time out for the fakeness, the fake love, the drama; I have to let it go in order to grow. Even though I know I will never receive an apology I forgive you, I forgive you for myself, so I can move forward with life. The memories we share are not all bad, that what makes it so hard to let go but when the bad begins outweigh the good you know it’s time to let it go. It’s no beef so any love lost, I actually love you guys more than words can explain. To the people that I have hurt, I am sorry. The love you showed me could not be returned because I was not capable. I did not love myself so I could not love you. Up until recently I did not realize how my words and actions hurt others. I was selfish and really did not care about anyone else but myself. I now see the error in my ways and I am ready to turn over a new leaf. Past you are what your name is , THE PAST, and you will no longer control my life.
“My past has not defined me, destroyed me, deterred me, or defeated me; it has only strengthened me.” ― Steve Maraboli